Psalm 94:17-19

17 Unless the LORD had given me help,
I would soon have dwelt in the silence of death.

18 When I said, "My foot is slipping,"
your love, O LORD, supported me.

19 When anxiety was great within me,
your consolation brought joy to my soul.

08-11-05 ~What’s Today? Why, it’s my last day at Old Navy!~

But you know what’s the biggest thing on my mind? The fact that I haven’t had a headache for 4 days! Thank You, God! Sososososososoooo much!
After having headaches and tension day after day, to not have had one for 4 days is simply a miracle from God. I know that God promises healing and does miracles….and as small as a head may seem, to finally not have one, even if for only 4 days, is a HUGE miracle. In the Big Picture, God just keeps doing all kinds of things, and I’m so glad that I haven’t been blinded to them.
THE BIG PICTURE:
God saved a great job at Starbucks for me. Not just any Starbucks, but the one with a piano for me to play, and He saved it for the past three months. He’s put amazing people in my life who love Him and know the real estate biz to help Josh and I find a house to rent—someday to buy. Best of all, God has given me a wonderful husband-to-be and great in-laws who love and trust the Lord! Oh, and two sons~> Justin(9yrs) and Shane(6yrs.).

Note: Josh’s blog entry 8-10-05 joshuaforeman.blogspot.com

Lord, I don’t want to leave Your ordinances and guidance and statutes the second that You meet my needs and I am content. Help me to grow in faith and perseverance! I want to bless You—even on my last day at Old N., on my last 1pm-10pm closing shift with the supervisor who’s never liked me. I want to shine Your Light of grace and love, touching all that are around me, because just like me, You first loved them, and You love with all of Your heart!!
I want to walk in my Father’s footsteps, on the path You have set before me in utter righteousness, doing good things for You! Help me to have peace, to “feel” You Presence and the emotion of overwhelming love for Josh and the boys and provide me with beautiful words that speak blessings, honor and encouragement over my three precious boys. ~Love Ya!


Romans 15:5-6 (New American Standard Bible)

5Now may the (A)God who gives perseverance and encouragement grant you (B)to be of the same mind with one another according to Christ Jesus,
6so that with one accord you may with one voice glorify (C)the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ.

8-10-05 ~A Funny Thing~

So last night while Josh (fiancé) and I were praying, I asked that God would PLEASE show me where my 5lb. and 10lb. weights were(I know! Weird prayer, huh? But I promise you that there were more critical things that we prayed for like safety for his two young boys while they were over at grandma and grandpa’s house.) so that I could start strengthening my back and neck, (now that I finally go to the chiropractor only once a week instead of three), hopefully relieving the horrible tension and pain from my neck and spine, finally relieving my horrible (and stupid) headaches. Really bad headaches EVERY SINGLE DAY that don’t go away with any pain medication has really got to stop. Not that lifting weights will stop the pain, but it will stimulate my muscles in a different way—causing them to be “tense” in a different way. And believe me! I have prayed over and over to God to release the pain, because really, after seeing the x-rays, there just isn’t any other way unless I took really, REALLY strong prescription drugs—which just medicate and don’t actually fix the problem.
So this morning I looked in all the SAME places that I have for the past 6 months and what do ya know? I found my 10lbs weights in an old purple trash can from when all of us 7 girls (I live in a house with six other girls from my church) moved from our Redmond house!! YAY! It’s been so long, that I don’t even know how much I’ll even be able to lift 10lbs. Okay God—I’ll probably really need to find my 5lbs weights for my weak muscles. ☺
And the search continued. As I…..Oh Wait!!! And I found my Bruce Almighty video tape in the trash can also! ….Anyways, as I walked into the house to share the good news with Hannah and Jen, my eyes caught a glance of my 5lbs hidden behind boxes! Yay again…I need to call Josh!
Hmmm…what else?
WELL~~I’m glad you asked!
God is so cool!! It’s not because He gives us stuff, but it’s because I know He’s real and that He’s truly listening, watching, and planning to keep me safe!...However, God still reaches us and talks to us on even our lowly human level, still providing for us. God provided Josh with a bonus!! It’ll pay for our honeymoon and then my parents, some how (I think God must have given it to them ☺ ), transferred money into my account for wedding costs! I pray that God blesses them so much!

~~God, it’s so easy to sit here and come up with a wish list of things I want, but that is not what it’s all about. It’s about You, my Lord who has saved me, who loves me and who won’t ever abandon me (even though at times, I accuse You of it).
I pray that I will continue to grow into the fullness of Your love, so that I am one with You and can be one with others, leaving my selfish thoughts behind me as I see the things You desire to show me. I do not want my love to be hypocritical—I want it fervent and strong with Your Spirit, serving and loving those around me.

6He who regards one day as special, does so to the Lord. He who eats meat, eats to the Lord, for he gives thanks to God; and he who abstains, does so to the Lord and gives thanks to God. 7For none of us lives to himself alone and none of us dies to himself alone. 8If we live, we live to the Lord; and if we die, we die to the Lord. So, whether we
live or die, we belong to the Lord.
Romans 14 (New International Version)

8-9-05

Lord, I pray that You would fill me with understanding. Please rid me of my “knowledge,” and speak to me through revelation. I don’t want this to be just another reading of the Bible, like most mornings, and after ten minutes, leaving to work, not remembering a single thing.
Lord, I ask that You would give me focus and show me how to truly meditate on Your Word. Thank You for loving me. I’m writing this journal (hopefully I stay with it) to hold captive my thoughts and prayers), really wanting this to help me to meditate on and keep record of what you say to me.
You are so good!

Romans 12:9-13
“Let love be without hypocrisy. Abhor what is evil, cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in brotherly love; give preference to one another in honor, not lagging behind in diligence, fervent in the Spirit, serving the Lord; rejoicing in hope, persevering in tribulation, DEVOTED TO PRAYER, contributing to the needs of the saints, practicing hospitality.”

~He Called Out A Warning~

My arms can protect My children!
My blood can heal them!
My joy can bring laughter…
~But they can't hear My voice!

I called out their names and they turned to My voice.
Only moments later, they shrugged Me away
In pursuit of the distractions.

Cursed is he who deceives!
For I will crush him under My feet!
I will have revenge on he who torments My children!

They are My beloved! They are worth everything to Me!
They consume My thoughts!
I bind you, liar, to an eternity of hell for hurting them!

How dare you challenge Me!
I created you, and I will destroy you!
How dare you hurt My beloved, My precious creation!
~Revenge is Mine!