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Lord,
I want them to know Your heart! They NEED to know Your longing for them! Your cries for their hearts to be one with Yours are loud, and I want them to be in love with You, their Maker

All these bodies believing themselves to be worthless, all of these hearts that have quieted and rejected Your, I-love-you's.

How do You not give up? My Lord, You amaze me, for my heart, selfish and small, would have crumbled at such denial; would have angered easily at all the rejection, and yet, You are still here with us You still linger with me.

To understand Your depths to be able to love as compassionately as You, and to rejoice over all as You rejoice over all of Your creation, would surely set me free from the chains that keep me from comprehension, right? But You are God, not I. I learn from Your Words and I observe Your Son, but I am hopeless without You and I lack ALL wisdom without You, because I am nothing compared to You. For You are God, not I. And yet, You love me as powerless, as unloving, as selfish, and as foolish as I am. You have not once turned from me, but it is I who turn from You.

You love me.
You have saved me.

You are my Lord, God!
You are my strength, my teacher, and You are my Father and Redeemer!

Sweet redemption has rescued this undeserving soul.

I am Your child, for You have said so many times Yourself, and I will respect You; I will follow Your precepts that keep me safe and keep me guarded in Your love for me.

And even on my deathbed, You will whisper to me, "My child, I love you so much! You are precious in My sight! Come and breathe new life!"

These words, "You are precious My sight," resonate deep within. Wow! Such authority; such love with which He speaks these words unto me and unto you! Every moment of my life and every moment of yours, He has spoken such love and adoration over our lives, over our hearts and over our souls. He has spoken this over you from since before He knew you, before your mother's womb carried you, He knew you by name!

I am precious in His sight, even while I've been so un-precious to so many people, so many times. But He looks at me, His creation, He sees Himself within the depths of my being, for I am created in His image! He made me out of His splendor and from His glory! And cursed are all those who have said I am worth nothing! Those that have said that I am not precious and un-lovable! For men who dare to speak of others in such ways are hurting God's sons and daughters! All men who have slaughtered others, carried by hearts soiled with lies and darkness, will meet their Creator.

God is burdened with their choices and His heart aches at every word which they have spoken over others with the intent to kill and destroy, and yet, the Lord, God would give even them mercy and compassion the moment they repent for their evil deeds. And I wonder, how different am I from those men? Not so different, indeed. For I sin.

We are all precious in His sight and we are all His creation. But beware, for there will be a time of judgment. At that moment there will be life and there will be death handed out to each of His children. And yours and my ridiculous sense of justice will not define His judgment, but His judgment will be designed around truth and faith. Judgment will not be weighed on a scale made to measure good behavior from bad behavior, but the degree in which the Creator will judge is far above our feeble minds! Far above all you theologians! Far above you! Far above me!

He has waited all this time. He has waited for you and I to come and trust Him! He has called you by name!

Do you not understand? All of you who wait for facts to outweigh faith have wasted time! So many facts lay upon this soil on which we stand, facts that support the earth to suspend in space, but these facts were not waiting for man's discoveries, you fools, merely due to man's intelligence! All of this is due to God's creation!

Open your eyes and truly see! Open your ears and truly listen! Dare to hope in something greater than you! Would you die in your own understanding? Or would you rather hope and find peace in God, the only God who actually loves His creation! The only God who doesn't ask anything in return! He patiently waits for you, His son and His daughter. It's not about what you can do to get to Him. You will never reach Him on your own strength, with your own wit and endurance. But you shall reach Him with love. You will find Him in those quiet moments, some that are hopeless as you see only despair and death, while others you will find Him through joyous occasions. Do you not see? He is with you through ALL of your moments, days, weeks, and life. You don't see because you have not looked with a hopeful and believing heart, because you lie stuck in your hopeless understanding.

You have let facts destroy your hope! Foolish minds and cold hearts, all of which are still precious to Him! I do not understand this preciousness in which God sees in you or in me And so, humbly I fall, for I am not God. I am nothing in my sight. I am a cold and selfish being, looking after my own desires, dictating my own faith in which a so called god will accommodate.

O', my foolish state! And yet, He continues to let me live. He continues to give me what I desire, and He continues to give to me and to provide for me, but I would be all the more foolish if I didn't recognize that it's ALL about how God loves me completely and continually. It's not about what I have. He loves me through the good times and through my bad times.

My Lord deserves my repentance!
"I am sorry!"
I do not deserve His EVERLASTING love! My faith today grows with my hope in God, which then grows my understanding of God. And this grows my love for God, my Creator!

Facts fall in line with my faith, facts are not "covered-up" by an unrealistic faith! A hopeless coward is not what I desire to be, for my God desires me, more than ANY of you ever will!
And I will always choose to desire my King, my magnificent Creator!

I'm Spiritually and Emotionally Challenged. Are You?

So I flipped through my Bible to Isaiah and read Isaiah 43…which is so powerful! It's so hard to think that God loves like that... and that He loves you and I like that. How undeserving that is...but even that's hard to understand! Undeserving? What does that mean? I think a lot of Christians can easily get caught up in kind of a " middle-ground" of sorts when it comes to knowing how undeserving they really are, because they can't even imagine or comprehend at how passionately and how FIERCELY God loves us. He loves us as much as Jesus…actually, He loves us even more, because He sent His Son to die so that we wouldn’t have to. AND even crazier is that Jesus was God in a body like ours, (it’s the “trinity” (God the Father, God the Son, God the Holy Spirit, three in One) thing→kind of more of a faith thing than a brain-comprehending thing)So, I think on that middle ground, it's easy for Christians to stop exploring and stop trying to understand God’s way of Loving, mostly because we're all too selfish and lazy to even TRY to love like Him (blamelessly, mercifully, compassionately, tenderheartedly,...and COMPLETELY).

God has truly called us to do something amazing. But until we can understand what God means when He says, in Isaiah 43:

"1. But now, O Israel [which is us now also], the LORD who created you says: "Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you. I have called you by name; you are mine. 2. When you go through deep waters and great trouble, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown! When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you. 3. For I am the LORD, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior." …And when He says...
"But you are my witnesses, O Israel!" says the LORD. "And you are my servant. You have been chosen to know me, believe in me, and understand that I alone am God. There is no other God; there never has been and never will be. 11. I am the LORD, and there is no other Savior. 12. First I predicted your deliverance; I declared what I would do, and then I did it--I saved you. No foreign god has ever done this before. You are witnesses that I am the only God," says the LORD. 13. "From eternity to eternity I am God. No one can oppose what I do. No one can reverse my actions."

...Until we can understand His love, how can we understand how undeserving we are...and visa versa...

And so, after the first and MOST important commandment, " Love the Lord your God with all your of your heart, soul and mind ...", His second one is about loving others as yourself. So to begin to start understanding how God loves us, we have to start loving like Him. Little steps become bigger and bigger, perhaps starting by loving that family member of yours who may have hurt you tremendously in the past, then by learning to love a homeless person who comes to your work who smells so bad that you're fighting vomiting (that's a true reality at my job...and shamefully I haven't loved that person) to when all of a sudden, with God's strength and a deeper and more fulfilling understanding of His love, you can begin to learn what it means to love like God. Mother Theresa mercifully showed us all.

And now I'm scratching my head, trying to think of where I was going with this....except, I DO KNOW that billions are faithful and love like God does...and I know that their love, more than likely, is rejected and judged, and if it isn't being turned against them right now, it most likely will be and eventually as they gain a greater understanding and more revelations from God about what's happening in the lives around them, people will hurt them back out of deceit and out of hearts that have hurt for so long because they have never been truly given to God faithfully.

Sadly, so many people turn away from even a hope of there being a real God, because they have been so called, "loved," by bad and horrible people, or simply because, perhaps, not a single soul has EVER told them just how precious they really are-->maybe the phrase "I love you" has been hidden from theirs ears from every single person they have met. But, with so many people who are out in the world, loving like God, loving endlessly, constantly fighting for God's children, constantly praying for those around them, I know that they are always reminding people that they are loved, and God shines bright and His Words of Life will meet those broken hearts.

And tonight I am struck with hope. I want to understand God more. I want to believe more and build my faith. I am weak and do not love like God. And that is why I struggle and fail to realize how much I am loved by the one, true God, my creator, who designed me with His purpose in mind, who will continue to do His good work through me, even when I mess up.
I have failed tremendously and haven’t believed that I am “undeserving,” because I have aimlessly wandered middle ground, not willing to give up being comfortable and to give selflessly to those in need. I’ve only given the bare minimal, leaving plenty for myself afterward.

And here I am, repenting to my Lord and Savior, for what a horrible example I’ve shown, and what a fool I’ve made out of my faith.

I admit that I am scared to talk to strangers, and I am uncomfortable around people who smell. I need strength.

This should be a daily prayer for myself. God says to come and ask Him…
“2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. 6But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.” James 1

James is really humbling, actually. In fact, here’s how we’re supposed to treat the poor (and smelly).
“1My brothers, as believers in our glorious Lord Jesus Christ, don't show favoritism. 2Suppose a man comes into your meeting wearing a gold ring and fine clothes, and a poor man in shabby clothes also comes in. 3If you show special attention to the man wearing fine clothes and say, "Here's a good seat for you," but say to the poor man, "You stand there" or "Sit on the floor by my feet," 4have you not discriminated among yourselves and become judges with evil thoughts?”

Wow. God’s is really trying to get to me. I pray that I learn from it.

Good night.